The Freedom to Create

Disconnect Over the course of the past few days, like many others, I was shocked to see such civil unrest in our nation. I needed a place to record my thoughts and decided to put them here. I haven't been inspired to paint or create a damn thing as I've been numb since this past weekend. Trying to compartmentalize all this unrest. Feeling what everyone has been feeling. Combing through my folder I came on this piece titled "Disconnect". My question this morning: "Why are we all so offended?" Early days of childhood weren't we all exposed to the teaching of tolerance? When did we all become so self-righteous?  Is this the face of our future? Expressions of pain and fear?   My conclusion this morning is that we ARE looking in the mirror and we don't like what we see in ourselves. We see our prejudices, we see our bigotry, we see our lack of tolerance brought on by own experiences. Each of us projects our reflection of who we are

Have you ever asked yourself the question- "What things could I do if I weren't so afraid?" I'm watching music videos of Kurt Cobain perform with Nirvana. Watching how out of control everything seems to be. How uninhibited he is while performing. Truly, he was a great performer. Jumping, writhing in front of the camera and then I think of the totality of his life. Well, it didn't end well to say the least.  It's suggested that Kurt was overwhelmed with his instant success.  He seemed to just explode. Is this what happens when we open the door and let everything out? Do we just explode and travel to another dimension? Do we hang on to that little piece of ourselves so we don't travel off just yet? Do we sabotage our own success by hanging onto control? These are just some thoughts running through my head this morning. Getting geared up for the day thinking maybe I can find a new way. A new path to take, a new statement I can make. I am rather a visu